Thursday, May 14, 2009

reflections



















Who am I? What am I reflecting to the world around me? I think this is an important question to ask ourselves. Are we being authentic? Keepin' it real? Or are we hiding? Scared? What will other people think of me?

I ask this question because I took this photo the day I visited my grandmother. My uncle lives with my Granny. When he came to live there he seems to have imposed his vegetarianism on my grandmother. Granny is not a vegetarian. Never has been and probably never will be. But when she's around him she a veggie eatin' granny. But when I come to visit...she's a carnivore. It's burgers all around. She sends me off to What-A-Burger for a hamburger. And when my parents visit...it's BBQ or steak sandwiches. All this meat when my uncle's away at work. And I have to wonder if she hides the evidence.

It's funny because I think as a mother I sometimes feel that I shouldn't be allowed to have fun and be creative. It seems to be so superfluous. Like I should just be doing laundry, washing dishes, wiping noses and tushies. Since I started my Unravelling journey I've been the crazy woman carrying her camera around everywhere. Shooting up a storm. But I figure, there are a lot of people doing the same thing all over the world because we're all on this journey together. Some women are really open and raw while others hide just barely getting their toes wet. I think I'm somewhere in the middle. I look forward to getting to know more bloggy friends. I look forward to finding myself. Unleashing my creativity that I've held back for so long.

Here's a few more reflections of my week:





2 comments:

Von said...

Hey Amber - fellow Journeyer! I'm kind of embarrassed to be quoting from "French Women Don't Get Fat" but I do love this part and I think it's just right for you: a Mum trying to balance everyone's needs and her own need to create, "...there is nothing noble in failing to discover and cultivate your pleasures. (It will make you not only fat, but grouchy.) You owe it to your loved ones as well as yourself to know and pursue your pleasures." Obviously, you don't have as much time to 'cultivate and pursue' as some, but it's important, right? Good luck with feeding your soul and blessing the world :) Von @ http://vonetal.typepad.com/vonerable/

Amy said...

Well for someone who was worried about reflections, you got some great shots! Congrats on working through the camera difficulties.