Monday, June 01, 2009

self-conscious

Today I started taking photos for the next Unravelling assignment. For some odd reason I took photos of myself after I had gotten out of the shower. Wet hair. Fresh-faced. I'm having a hard time taking myself seriously because I'm really just feeling self-conscious. My inner critic is yelling loud and clear. Too dopey, too droopy, too boring. This may just be the most difficult week of all. On top of it all, I'm just flat-out tired. My little lady keeps throwing me curve balls. Sleeping through the night. Not sleeping through the night. Sleeping through the night. Waking up twice in one night and then again at 6 am. I hope to be writing about more exciting things in the near future besides how tired I am. Stay tuned folks.

3 comments:

Javajune said...

Dear Grace,
This is the hardest week for me to unravel. I hate my pictures- it's the age thing. I didn't mind my face before forty and then it was like over night and everything (gravity and stress) just caught up to me. At least we can all struggle together- it doesn't make my pictures look any younger but the support is nice.
Hope you get some sleep!
xo-JJ

Jana Souza said...

here's to rest and some acceptance. I so get this. I am tired and worn (well, I think by now, that is evident from my swimming in the pool). I am glad you are there, in the pool. Amber, it's great getting to know you.

bel said...

Amber, I am with you all the way here. My little man sounds exactly the same. I think its the inconsistency that is really getting to me. One day its 4am, the next 5am, the next he's awake at 10pm. It is utterly exhausting! Take comfort in the thought that you are not alone (someone is suffering the same fate across the other side of the world!). X Bel